it's pathetic how much I care about you....still

IF IT WASN'T 4 YOU.. I WOULDN'T BE HERE RIGHT NOW.. THANK YOU..

Tue, 17 Feb 2004 03:22:12 GMT

god.. i love you guys.. yes my weekend was awesome.. only because of the people i was with.. otherwise i would've been all pissy ass depressed like i've been lately.. (fuck valentines day! it needs to stop comin until i get someone special to share it with.. and ONLY until then.. lol) but besides that.. hol made me notice something.. and thats gonna bother me now.. nothing bad.. just something i wish could've lasted.. and should've lasted.. damn me! but hey, i ruin everything.. i'm kinda gettin used to it.. i just have to wait..

me"it was already dead and you had to go and KILL it again!" :(
boom"you can't kill something that's already dead!"
me"you can if it's !!MY FOOT!!"

being around you every weekend.. God, it kills me.. watching you.. knowing I mean nothing.. the more I try.. the harder I fall..

x0x0x --<3

time heals all wounds?
....who the fuck came up with that shit.. time just makes it worse.. everything gets dragged on and the pains STILL there.. so whoever you are--you must not know REAL pain..

I REALLY FUCKIN HATE YOU...

Fri, 13 Feb 2004 02:13:56 GMT

FUCK YOU!.. ass hole.. I can't believe you said that.. UGH! and you think everything will be fine next time I we're together.. FUCK THAT!.. you're an ass.. you think you know everything.. NO! you don't.. and don't think saying that was a joke.. or funny.. or ANYTHING.. it wasn't fuckin funny.. you don't know shit.. UGH!..

D- I'm sorry for flipping out on you.. I'm a girl.. Holly and I both prefer getting along with people than startin shit and treatin them like shit for something they might not have even realized.. ya know? and we didn't want YOUR GIRLFRIEND to get into trouble.. she even had to tell you to calm down.. but I'm sorry.. and.. I didn't mean anything when I told her you do it a lot.. I was about to joke about it but had no time cause Ray said his fuckin ass hole comment.. ugh.. I'm callin you now!.. to make sure we're cool.. <3 ya..

Hol-Levis-Boobs-i love you guys.. levis-"I got you back like a chyropractor".. me-"i could use a chyropractor".. levis-"this one time i slipped..".. me-"dont you do it, Levis, dont do it!".. LOL.. and Holly-I just love you girl.. you my BF4FE.. (and of course Al but she's gone sooo we'll wait for her to come home .. :( I miss you!)

FUCK YOU.. FUCK TONIGHT.. FUCK YOUR OPINIONS.. FUCK GUYS.. FUCK "FRIENDS".. FUCK MY LIFE..

x0x0x --</3 wanna ruin my night a little more?... come on... everyone else does... give it a shot!... </3

JUST FOR YOU....

Thu, 12 Feb 2004 23:23:06 GMT

MY NEW JOURNAL!!.. ya like? lol.. same layout.. but I wanted a new name!! :).. well I'm about to go out..

x0x0x --<3